WARNING: THIS BLOG CONTAINS 'CLOVERFIELD' SPOILERS. IF YOU PLAN TO SEE IT AND WOULD LIKE TO BE SURPRISED DO NOT READ. YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!!
So this past week I rented "Cloverfield" not expecting to even remotely like it. I like scary movies, but sometimes they tend freak me out I had problems watching "I Am Legend" because I have this weird and scary feeling it could somehow happen to me one day an the entire world would be extinct. But "Cloverfield" pleasantly surprised me. I wasn't too scared, I was more thrilled by the whole thing. Another good thing is that it wasn't too gross and blood infested.
The movie follows this guy Rob who is taking a long trip to Japan or China. The whole plot is that he slept with one of his best friends, Beth who he's been in love with forever. Beth and Rob got into a huge fight at his going away party which his friends threw him. When the monster, (which is this huge lizard, gross slimmy thing, that has huge spider/crabby looking things coming off of him) hits town and all the New Yorkers are forced to leave town Rob calls Beth only to hear her shreaking voice saying she was hurt and needed help. The whole story turns when Rob and his friends, Lily, Hud (camera holder) and Marlena set off to go find Beth in her apartment.
Sadly, Marlena, and Hud both die along the way. The ending is a bit confusing and leaves a lot of unanswered questions which led a lot of rumors to circulate about a sequel but as far as I know the director has cleared up a lot of the unanswered questions (What's the monster there for?, Where'd he come from?, Did he die?, Did Lily die?, Did Rob & Beth die?) . It's all a bit crazy but I loved it.
Lizzy Caplan, who you might remember as Janis in "Mean Girls" did an amazing job. Her face after every scene that was scary was amazing and I definetly believed she was under attack by a huge creature and scared out of her mind. Unfortunatly she did die and I was quite sad about it.
The rest of the cast did amazing as well and I give it five stars. Go see it if you haven't and don't think you'll like it. It may surprise you.
Currently hearing:
"Cancer" By: My Chemical Romance.
Quote of the Blog:
"What's wrong with you? He's just a kid. We're all just kids and we just have this life and the things you say and do, we feel that. How can you have so much hate in your heart? How can you act like it doesn't matter? It does matter. What happened to us? We're just kids. We can't be like this. It's not possible."
- One Tree Hill (Abby Brown).
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
A Place In This World ♥
Today I was listening to the song "A Place In This World" by Taylor Swift and really feeling what she was saying and what her words really meant, I guess relating to her.
A Place In This World
By: Taylor Swift
I don't know what I want, so don't ask me.
Cause' I'm still trying to figure it out.
Don't know what's down this road.
I'm just walking, trying to see through the rain coming down.
Even though I'm not the only one who feels the way I do...
I'm alone, on my own and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong oh but life goes on.
Oh I'm just a girl.
Trying to find a place in this world.
Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
and I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve.
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
Can you tell me what more do I need?
And tomorrow's just a mystery of life, but that's okay.
I'm alone, on my own and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong oh but life goes on.
Oh I'm just a girl.
Trying to find a place in this world.
Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission....
That I'm ready to blow.
I'm alone.
On my own.
And that's all I know.
Oh I'll be strong, I'll be wrong oh but life goes on.
Oh I'm alone.
And that's all I know.
Oh I'm just a girl trying to find a place in this world.
Oh I'm just a girl....
Trying to find a place in this world.
I'm just a girl....
Oh I'm just a girl.
As I'm listening to this song I'm feeling mixed emotions. As I'm living my life and trying to make my dreams come true I realize that being an outsider, and feeling alone is the only way to find your place in this world.
Maybe it's not with the jocks, or cheerleaders, or sluts or whatever. But it's somewhere, it just takes some time to find it.
Now that Taylor Swift has found her place with singing and that song really is just a past feeling, I'm feeling better. If Taylor Swift has found her place then I know it's not impossible and just listening to those words and seeing how her dreams have all come true I really do feel amazing, and I do believe that I can do it.
Oh and a little 'Natalie update': I went to the doctor today to have her look at that gross bump on my face (if you're my friend you've seen it probably, it's just below my right eye and is just a plain white, gross bump). I found out it's a shinx or something like that. Usually their a bubble that holds something in it, like cancer or a virous, but it's fine. It's not infected and it won't hurt me in the long run. My doctor told me if I wanted it off, the only real way would be to get it off using plastic surgery. So I'll be going into a dermatologist soon to have them look at it and figure out how to do my surgery, we can only pray before school so I won't have a huge scar on my face when I return. Other then that everything's perfectly fine, and I'm a happy camper it's summer.
Love times a million,
Nat.
Currently hearing:
"Your Eyes" By: Adam Pascal from Rent.
Quote of the Blog:
"It's amazing how quickly your life can just change. How fast a new person can come into it, how fast someone can just disappear. Everything can change in an instant and it's just amazing to me" -Stephanie Marie Gotz. (R.I.P. 1986-2008)
A Place In This World
By: Taylor Swift
I don't know what I want, so don't ask me.
Cause' I'm still trying to figure it out.
Don't know what's down this road.
I'm just walking, trying to see through the rain coming down.
Even though I'm not the only one who feels the way I do...
I'm alone, on my own and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong oh but life goes on.
Oh I'm just a girl.
Trying to find a place in this world.
Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
and I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve.
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
Can you tell me what more do I need?
And tomorrow's just a mystery of life, but that's okay.
I'm alone, on my own and that's all I know.
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong oh but life goes on.
Oh I'm just a girl.
Trying to find a place in this world.
Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission....
That I'm ready to blow.
I'm alone.
On my own.
And that's all I know.
Oh I'll be strong, I'll be wrong oh but life goes on.
Oh I'm alone.
And that's all I know.
Oh I'm just a girl trying to find a place in this world.
Oh I'm just a girl....
Trying to find a place in this world.
I'm just a girl....
Oh I'm just a girl.
As I'm listening to this song I'm feeling mixed emotions. As I'm living my life and trying to make my dreams come true I realize that being an outsider, and feeling alone is the only way to find your place in this world.
Maybe it's not with the jocks, or cheerleaders, or sluts or whatever. But it's somewhere, it just takes some time to find it.
Now that Taylor Swift has found her place with singing and that song really is just a past feeling, I'm feeling better. If Taylor Swift has found her place then I know it's not impossible and just listening to those words and seeing how her dreams have all come true I really do feel amazing, and I do believe that I can do it.
Oh and a little 'Natalie update': I went to the doctor today to have her look at that gross bump on my face (if you're my friend you've seen it probably, it's just below my right eye and is just a plain white, gross bump). I found out it's a shinx or something like that. Usually their a bubble that holds something in it, like cancer or a virous, but it's fine. It's not infected and it won't hurt me in the long run. My doctor told me if I wanted it off, the only real way would be to get it off using plastic surgery. So I'll be going into a dermatologist soon to have them look at it and figure out how to do my surgery, we can only pray before school so I won't have a huge scar on my face when I return. Other then that everything's perfectly fine, and I'm a happy camper it's summer.
Love times a million,
Nat.
Currently hearing:
"Your Eyes" By: Adam Pascal from Rent.
Quote of the Blog:
"It's amazing how quickly your life can just change. How fast a new person can come into it, how fast someone can just disappear. Everything can change in an instant and it's just amazing to me" -Stephanie Marie Gotz. (R.I.P. 1986-2008)
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Rant.
I know I'm going a little overboard with posting but I'm not tired nor am I ready to go to sleep. So I decided to write yet another blog.
I've been closely examining life lately. I don't know why. It might be because I've taken an interest in thriller movies that revolve around the world ending and everyone in panic. Or maybe it's because I now realize how someone's life can end in an instant.
It's amazing how god throws curveballs in your life. How he teaches so many leasons and tries to make sense of why we're meant to be on earth. Whether it be losing a best friend, or finding true love, or losing true love, in the end you learn from it. Whether it be to never take anything for granted or to fall in love and not be afraid or to move on from something that hurts. In the end life is just one big curveball. One big mistake. One big lesson.
As I'm watching people grow, people part, and learn to become indepentdent I'm wondering if that's our purpose in life? To learn something. To learn something and take it with us after life. I guess I just want to have the faith to believe that there's something after death, that their's something more to life then just lessons, and regrets that there's something more to death then just darkness and black.
As I'm growing older and finding myself already looking into colleges and what I want to do with my life it's occuring to me that I'm learning to be independent and I'm learning to have a hard shell and see rejection.
As I'm sitting here are 12:03 at night, writing I'm trying to grasp the concept of life. Grasp why we're forced to make hard decisions or part with ones we love. Why can't everything be like the movies and everyone lives happily ever after?
People come into your life easily and can leave your life easily. It truely is amazing. But I guess that's all in our life lesson plans. To be able to handle rejection and comfrontation and be able to realize that everything isn't all it's cracked up to be. That we aren't all just put on this earth to live and that's it.
Ugh.... I don't know what I'm trying to say this blog is becomming a whole big mesh of words and phrases. I guess I'm trying to say that we shouldn't look at all the negative stuff, we should look at the positive stuff. "Every song ends, but is that any reason to not enjoy the music?" That is a very vaulable quote from One Tree Hill and I'm satisfied to say that I've taken a lot from that quote, not only it's meaning but everything. Everything does end, but enjoy it.
Wow.... I'm not even going to re-read that blog. I'm sure none of it makes sense, but I don't care.
Love times a million,
Nat.
Currently listening to:
"Learning to fall" By: Boys Like Girls.
Quote of the blog:
"What I've learned is not to change who you are, because eventually you're going to run out of new things to become."
- Taylor Swift.
I've been closely examining life lately. I don't know why. It might be because I've taken an interest in thriller movies that revolve around the world ending and everyone in panic. Or maybe it's because I now realize how someone's life can end in an instant.
It's amazing how god throws curveballs in your life. How he teaches so many leasons and tries to make sense of why we're meant to be on earth. Whether it be losing a best friend, or finding true love, or losing true love, in the end you learn from it. Whether it be to never take anything for granted or to fall in love and not be afraid or to move on from something that hurts. In the end life is just one big curveball. One big mistake. One big lesson.
As I'm watching people grow, people part, and learn to become indepentdent I'm wondering if that's our purpose in life? To learn something. To learn something and take it with us after life. I guess I just want to have the faith to believe that there's something after death, that their's something more to life then just lessons, and regrets that there's something more to death then just darkness and black.
As I'm growing older and finding myself already looking into colleges and what I want to do with my life it's occuring to me that I'm learning to be independent and I'm learning to have a hard shell and see rejection.
As I'm sitting here are 12:03 at night, writing I'm trying to grasp the concept of life. Grasp why we're forced to make hard decisions or part with ones we love. Why can't everything be like the movies and everyone lives happily ever after?
People come into your life easily and can leave your life easily. It truely is amazing. But I guess that's all in our life lesson plans. To be able to handle rejection and comfrontation and be able to realize that everything isn't all it's cracked up to be. That we aren't all just put on this earth to live and that's it.
Ugh.... I don't know what I'm trying to say this blog is becomming a whole big mesh of words and phrases. I guess I'm trying to say that we shouldn't look at all the negative stuff, we should look at the positive stuff. "Every song ends, but is that any reason to not enjoy the music?" That is a very vaulable quote from One Tree Hill and I'm satisfied to say that I've taken a lot from that quote, not only it's meaning but everything. Everything does end, but enjoy it.
Wow.... I'm not even going to re-read that blog. I'm sure none of it makes sense, but I don't care.
Love times a million,
Nat.
Currently listening to:
"Learning to fall" By: Boys Like Girls.
Quote of the blog:
"What I've learned is not to change who you are, because eventually you're going to run out of new things to become."
- Taylor Swift.
Drama advice. Yuck.
I've decided to let totally lose in this blog. Let all my feelings out. :)
There's one thing that teenage girls do really well, other then put their make-up on, other then pick out cute clothes. There's this thing, it's called drama. Lately I've been realizing regardless of who and what girl it is they're always surrounded by drama.
My life this time last year was beginning to become full of drama and hatred. I was not the nicest person and I know I hurt people. I'm sorry for that. I can't re-do it but I can regret it, and I do. Now I've been put in a world where I'm the one being hated, and I'm the one being picked on. Still.
This whole thing started about a half a year ago, over god knows what. Since girls start fight usually over something incredibly stupid I'm sure that's it. Anyways, did I think bad stuff about the people I was fighting with? Yes. Did I do bad things to the girls I was fighting with? I tried not too. Now that it's all past and I can look at the suituation without being thrown into it I realized all my fighting back, all my vitious messages, and vitious text messages were a waste. Because people like that, people that are jealous, and rude and overall bitches, those are the people you need to stay away from. My little sister is finding herself in the middle of drama and I'm mainly aiming this towards her.
If someone is already picking a fight with you, and making you cry, and upset and want to do things that you shouldn't do, they're obviously not worth your time or energy. Just wasting that time or energy is giving them what they want, to make you upset which is exactly what it'll do.
Don't get me wrong, a little drama is good, it keeps you humble, but at the same time. It's wrong, and it does hurt people, no matter how big or how small their heart is.
In conclusion I can safely say I try my best to keep myself out of drama. I keep myself humble at all times and I changed myself into being a good person who tries to keep drama away. I also have learned from my mistakes. Fighting back won't get you anywhere, it's leaving it alone, and ignoring it in the long run that'll keep you strong.
Oh and if they're still talking/gossiping about you consider it a compliment. It means that you've obviously made an impact on your life and hey, better to be talked about then not.
Love times a million,
Nat.
Currently listening to:
"Only Fooling Myself" By: Kate Voegele.
Quote of the blog:
"[People say]‘You’re always happy’ and I’m, like, sometimes I have a huge zit on my face. But if you smile, people won’t notice that. I do have bad-hair days but if you feel confident in yourself it would make people want to be around you."
- Cheyenne Kimball.
There's one thing that teenage girls do really well, other then put their make-up on, other then pick out cute clothes. There's this thing, it's called drama. Lately I've been realizing regardless of who and what girl it is they're always surrounded by drama.
My life this time last year was beginning to become full of drama and hatred. I was not the nicest person and I know I hurt people. I'm sorry for that. I can't re-do it but I can regret it, and I do. Now I've been put in a world where I'm the one being hated, and I'm the one being picked on. Still.
This whole thing started about a half a year ago, over god knows what. Since girls start fight usually over something incredibly stupid I'm sure that's it. Anyways, did I think bad stuff about the people I was fighting with? Yes. Did I do bad things to the girls I was fighting with? I tried not too. Now that it's all past and I can look at the suituation without being thrown into it I realized all my fighting back, all my vitious messages, and vitious text messages were a waste. Because people like that, people that are jealous, and rude and overall bitches, those are the people you need to stay away from. My little sister is finding herself in the middle of drama and I'm mainly aiming this towards her.
If someone is already picking a fight with you, and making you cry, and upset and want to do things that you shouldn't do, they're obviously not worth your time or energy. Just wasting that time or energy is giving them what they want, to make you upset which is exactly what it'll do.
Don't get me wrong, a little drama is good, it keeps you humble, but at the same time. It's wrong, and it does hurt people, no matter how big or how small their heart is.
In conclusion I can safely say I try my best to keep myself out of drama. I keep myself humble at all times and I changed myself into being a good person who tries to keep drama away. I also have learned from my mistakes. Fighting back won't get you anywhere, it's leaving it alone, and ignoring it in the long run that'll keep you strong.
Oh and if they're still talking/gossiping about you consider it a compliment. It means that you've obviously made an impact on your life and hey, better to be talked about then not.
Love times a million,
Nat.
Currently listening to:
"Only Fooling Myself" By: Kate Voegele.
Quote of the blog:
"[People say]‘You’re always happy’ and I’m, like, sometimes I have a huge zit on my face. But if you smile, people won’t notice that. I do have bad-hair days but if you feel confident in yourself it would make people want to be around you."
- Cheyenne Kimball.
Introduction.
So this is my first real blog. I've decided to put everything in my life in this blog and try my best to explain the crazy mixed up world of being a fifteen year old girl. I've dedicated this blog, introduction to all the main things on my blog, a little bit about me and some other cool stuff.
I made my banner and it took me forever believe it or not. It has pretty much my favorite things on it. Including my favorite bands (Jonas Brothers, Aly & AJ, A Coastline Ending , My Chemical Romance, Paramore, Boys Like Girls, etc.), My favorite movies (Rent, Say Anything, Thirteen, The Notebook, etc.), My favorite things (Ed Hardy, New York, Twilight, etc.) and my favorite actors/actresses (Robert Pattinson, Kirsten Stewart, Nikki Reed, etc.). There's a lot of my personality in there and a lot of things that really make me, me.
My personality is a lot different from anyone else's. I'm shy at first, but after I get acquainted and happy, I get pretty loud. I'm usually hyper and loud. It all depends on my mood.
I love everything. I swear, it's not easy to make me hate something specific. Well sometimes it is.
My hobbies include:
- Writing.
- Shopping.
- Hanging with friends.
- Reading.
- Watching T.V.
- Movies.
Those things probably make me look like a geek which I'm okay with. I like to consider myself a geek. My dream is to be a writer. I read a book called "What My Mother Doesn't Know" by Sonya Sones and instantly fell in love with writing. The way something and someone's words can change your entire outlook on life amazed me. I want to be able to have a teenage girl, who's confused and feeling alone and empty pick up my book and change her entire outlook on life, and her way of thinking. My whole dream is to be able to inspire people just like my favorite authors have. Inspire them to do the impossible and never give up. I'd also love to work for Seventeen magazine. I own every Seventeen magazine. I've actually never thrown them away and I plan to keep them all until I've accomplished my dream and worked at Seventeen and have a book published.
In this blog I've also decided to make a quote at the end of every blog. It's going to be just a little quote that I've picked out that I feel is very meaningful (especially to me).
I love music. Music is like my way of getting out. My normal life is hecktic and annoying. If I put on some music and put it up as loud as I can I usually feel better 100% of the time.
I love everything, except rap, I also am picky when it comes to country. My Chemical Romance's music usually helps me when I'm down. Putting in The Black Parade and screaming their songs usually helps me, and at the same times makes me bust out in tears. It's so meaningful. Their lyrics have real, real meaning to them and that's not something you get too often.
I also love Taylor Swift. (I told you I like EVERY kind of music) Her music is very helpful to me. Knowing someone is going or has gone through the things you have really helps clarify things. It helps you realize that yea, you may be unhappy, and feel like a freak but you're not. In reality you're going through what everyone else has. It's kind of the light at the end of the tunnel.
I also love a band called A Coastline Ending. Their song "Face The Music" is almost what inspired this blog. But I'll get more into that later.
Anyway, I'm tired and tomorrow I have to get up earlier then I usually do because I have a doctor's appointment to get this thing on my face (it's a gross huge pimple looking thing but it won't go away. I've had it for two months, ew) looked at.
Love times a million,
Nat.
Currently listening to:
"Let The Flames Begin" By: Paramore.
Quote of The Blog:
"And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But, losing your reason for the journey... is a fate more cruel."
- One Tree Hill (Peyton Sawyer).
I made my banner and it took me forever believe it or not. It has pretty much my favorite things on it. Including my favorite bands (Jonas Brothers, Aly & AJ, A Coastline Ending , My Chemical Romance, Paramore, Boys Like Girls, etc.), My favorite movies (Rent, Say Anything, Thirteen, The Notebook, etc.), My favorite things (Ed Hardy, New York, Twilight, etc.) and my favorite actors/actresses (Robert Pattinson, Kirsten Stewart, Nikki Reed, etc.). There's a lot of my personality in there and a lot of things that really make me, me.
My personality is a lot different from anyone else's. I'm shy at first, but after I get acquainted and happy, I get pretty loud. I'm usually hyper and loud. It all depends on my mood.
I love everything. I swear, it's not easy to make me hate something specific. Well sometimes it is.
My hobbies include:
- Writing.
- Shopping.
- Hanging with friends.
- Reading.
- Watching T.V.
- Movies.
Those things probably make me look like a geek which I'm okay with. I like to consider myself a geek. My dream is to be a writer. I read a book called "What My Mother Doesn't Know" by Sonya Sones and instantly fell in love with writing. The way something and someone's words can change your entire outlook on life amazed me. I want to be able to have a teenage girl, who's confused and feeling alone and empty pick up my book and change her entire outlook on life, and her way of thinking. My whole dream is to be able to inspire people just like my favorite authors have. Inspire them to do the impossible and never give up. I'd also love to work for Seventeen magazine. I own every Seventeen magazine. I've actually never thrown them away and I plan to keep them all until I've accomplished my dream and worked at Seventeen and have a book published.
In this blog I've also decided to make a quote at the end of every blog. It's going to be just a little quote that I've picked out that I feel is very meaningful (especially to me).
I love music. Music is like my way of getting out. My normal life is hecktic and annoying. If I put on some music and put it up as loud as I can I usually feel better 100% of the time.
I love everything, except rap, I also am picky when it comes to country. My Chemical Romance's music usually helps me when I'm down. Putting in The Black Parade and screaming their songs usually helps me, and at the same times makes me bust out in tears. It's so meaningful. Their lyrics have real, real meaning to them and that's not something you get too often.
I also love Taylor Swift. (I told you I like EVERY kind of music) Her music is very helpful to me. Knowing someone is going or has gone through the things you have really helps clarify things. It helps you realize that yea, you may be unhappy, and feel like a freak but you're not. In reality you're going through what everyone else has. It's kind of the light at the end of the tunnel.
I also love a band called A Coastline Ending. Their song "Face The Music" is almost what inspired this blog. But I'll get more into that later.
Anyway, I'm tired and tomorrow I have to get up earlier then I usually do because I have a doctor's appointment to get this thing on my face (it's a gross huge pimple looking thing but it won't go away. I've had it for two months, ew) looked at.
Love times a million,
Nat.
Currently listening to:
"Let The Flames Begin" By: Paramore.
Quote of The Blog:
"And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But, losing your reason for the journey... is a fate more cruel."
- One Tree Hill (Peyton Sawyer).
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